Leftovers

Last week my husband put in 80 plus hours at work! That's crazy ... INSANE! It was hard to have him gone that much. I missed him and our kids missed him, but I often forget how hard it is on Colin. There were some days that he got to see Jackson for only about ten minutes to tuck him into bed and then he went to work again and on those days he didn't see Micah at all. By the end of the week he was exhausted!

So what did I do when the craziness at his work finally blew over? No, I didn't cook him a fancy meal or get a babysitter and go on a date with him. I'm pretty sure we had leftovers and I went out for my usually Monday night Starbucks without him AND he let me go without complaint! I didn't think about Colin. I thought about myself. I was exhausted too from being a single parent all week. Part of me feels really guilty about it, but part of me really needed that time to myself to gather enough energy to love on my husband.

If I wasn't a Christian I think I'd be okay with my decision to think of myself. After all, our culture bombards us with the idea that we "deserve a break today." However, the Bible says differently, "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but with humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others" (Phil. 2:3-4) (Ironically that was the Bible verse that Jackson was memorizing the week that Colin worked those crazy hours and I STILL put my interests before Colin's.)

Colin got leftovers this week in more ways than one. However, we did have a wonderful and romantic date night last night. I am married to an amazing man and he deserves more than just my leftovers.